N came over yesterday and we went to Tampines after that. a lot of fooling around. went to his area before i went to bedok. wanted to make my way to Expo to find the guys working at Sitex, but decided not in the end. it's a pity, because i haven't been seeing jieting and the rest recently. have been missing out on the girls' lives. think we should meet up, i miss the old days, where all the girls come together.

we're catching New Moon this week, hopefully. can't wait. Team Edward, always.

Telling myself there shouldn't be doubts anywhere in between.

i thought we were watching New Moon today. but some spoiler had to come and wreck my plan. i give up, i've enough of your stinking attitude, behaving like i owe you a living. it really sucks to know there are still such people in my circle of friends. just because i keep quiet all the time doesn't mean i can be pushed around. i just don't want to waste my breath on you, because you don't deserve my attention at all. not dining in at Dolce Vita, that's your doing as well. four hours of my effort went down the drain, because of a word from you. to me, you just put yourself above others and that's plain selfish. i'm not even kidding, if not for N, you wouldn't even be in my life for a second. just thinking of the hostile treatment i receive from you, it annoys me. you are by far the worst person i've ever met. i don't see why you got the rights to swear at me as and when you like it every time we're out. call yourself a man. FYI, chivalry is not dead. basic courtesy towards women still applies in our world. man like you bring shame upon all mankind. i despise you, period.

sorry for that huge chunk on top, but i gotta get it off my chest one way or another.

Every so often, you guys take me for granted and I just go along with it..

yesterday was full of astonishment. attended a trial at the Subordinate court with N. it was really solemn and i witnessed a guy sentenced to ten months imprisonment. there was a supremacy look on the judge. it's like, i don't think i would get another chance to have experiences like this. four played Wii at gab's place last night. madly entertaining. can never get enough of times like that.

no plans for today yet. just another day for rotting.

Still wishing for that day. It's like time never washed off any part of it.

half of the day was spent at Kallang. it was just.. indescribable. i came home with a big bruise on my arm and it's hurting every minute now. i walked home alone from phuimun's place earlier on because i thought i needed some time myself to mull over. got home at almost 12AM. i spent more than one hour in pensiveness. it just gets a tad tiring to be worrying everyday.

heading out again with N tomorrow, for a more serious appearance at somewhere before meeting the rest. it must turn out good. new word online; Cheerio ;)

I'm putting it behind me, because I choose to trust you.